Well I'm sitting here feeling kinda down because I've decided for now just to not have ANY contact with my daughter's father for at least awhile. Now I know it kind of seems selfish to me in a way, but i feel that this is the best thing i could do for myself & my daughter at this point. My daughter's father lets just say is the father that only wants his daughter when it is convient for him. When it boils down to it he maybe sees my daughter three to four times a month for a few hours each time, if I am lucky. He never calls to see how she is or texts or anything. He lives like literally two lights down from where i live, so to me there are no reasons as to why he can't ever just stop by at least for a couple minutes to see her or to see how she is doing either & let me add that i always have to call & push him to see her. When my daughter gets sick and ends up in the ER it is always only me being there for her & it literally breaks my heart because this is not the father I wanted for my daughter.So I have realized that having to deal with him that little time brings me down really bad emotionally, so to me it isnt even worth dealing with him at all. I feel that until he decides to be there like a father should be, i dont want to deal with him at all. I feel that I am the only one my daughter has so if it is him that is breaking me down from being the best person i can be for my daughter then i just need to cut him out for now. I just do not know when i will ever get used to the fact of him not being there for our daughter. Will I ever? how long did it take to get used to him not being there??