Seriously, what the heck! I'm too old for this. Yes I am on Birth Control, Implanon to be precise, suppose to be super effective for 3 years. I haven't event been on it for a year, and haven't been able to see if it works that much to begin with.
So my Mr. Not so wonderful, the one who said he was strong enough, and was the man, the one I let in my life, my kids life...backed out. He's the only one I've been with for the last 8 months.
After a lot of crying, screaming, venting, we came to friendlier terms, because my faith full-fills me, my friends and family adore me, what more could I ask for. Sure things aren't ideal and not sure what my next move is but this is gonna be a doozy if it turns out to be what I think it is.
That fateful visit to Anchorage, the one I should have just said , no stay away from me, but my will and love for him we're so alive, and he stayed with me the entire time I was there, we never left each others side, I left there hopeful, however, he had other plans, but i digress.
That was Dec 19-23. 2010. My monthly due time is the 1st and has lasted about 4 days heavily. Now, Its waaay past the 1st of this month..and nothing. I took a cheapo prego test and it came back according to the box, "inconclusive". Oh my.
So, now I am trying to convince myself, its just the birth=control, but the no periods possibility is not supposed to even be a possibility for after a year. Now I am also trying to convince myself that my urge to vomit after eating Top Ramen noodles is just nerves, etc. But this isn't my main question.
My ex and I, do I wait to tell him its a possibility until I'm absolutely sure? When? How? We do not live in the same town, and he's started seeing another lady. double ouch and double ugh.
My desire is to not say anything to him, until absolutely near the end of my Maybe pregnancy,but I know that would be selfish. I just don't want him thinking I need him and am doing this to get at him, I am more than capable of doing this on my own, but I still believe fathers deserve the chance to be involved in their kids life.
So, first order of business, take another test, after the 1st. Still tho, trying to figure out protocol for informating the ex.....HELP :O)